Friday
Nothing happened, even it might be my last day with they all. Hopefully it wasn't. I won the Passion for Learning reward :D A big thank you to those ppl who wrote my name on that day. The 30 dollars cash are coming to me $__$ Sch ended at 11 plus. Went to J8 with Farah, Dinglin, Lynn, Chingyen, Liyang, Brian. Met mummy, daddy, didi glenn, daryl, ivan and the t1s. Chingyen kept saying Hehe and Haha to me and farah, made us couldn't stop laughing. Farah said ppl will think we are crazy. Chingyen said, u are! haha.. My sister little lynn and dinglin wanted to fight with each other some how, and we wanted to find elmo for brian. Quite happy on that day and feel like i have a long time nvr laughed lyk that kind of crazy.
Yesterday
Woke up at noon. Played computer for the whole day. Changed my blog skin. Pinyi and her mother came my hse in the evening. Had dinner together and watched the korean show Jia Men De Rong Guang and Tao Hua Xiao Mei. She asked me to play piano for her. Such a long time, i have nvr touched my piano.. My fingers are getting rigider and rigider. The songs i played are dam lousy sia, lose face D: But my mood get more and more smooth during these days. My life is fun and ok without meeting him. Hope all the days onwards will like now.
I posted on facebook yesterday, asked Wat's the meaning of friends. Glenn said 'to be honest you have to define friend yourself and judge them . but if your asking me its someone who i can really trust and get help from when in need . Someone who wont backstab or gossip bout you bhind your backs.' Nvr heard this kind serious sentences from him. Haha. But, when i treat a person as a gd friend. I trust her, i love her as my friend. I think i had always gave her my helping hand whenever she needs me. I think she loves me as i love her, she treat me in the same way as i treat her as one of my best friends. I think.. I think.. Yea, these are all my wonderful thinkings, but actually im wrong. She nvr treated me as her friend. She forgot about me. Im absent in her friend list.
Pretty sad. I know im always the extra. Im the one which is always ignored by ppl through all the times. Im the one which ppl think me is the strongest and happiest. They forget to care abt me, they forget to love me, they forget there is a me in this world who need more love and more cares from others.. Want to cry on someone's shoulder, but there is no one for me. Want someone can msg me and ask me how are you, but there is no one remember me.. Never mind, im used to it for some years alr. Let the whole world leave me in the corner, i will do lyk .. 假装很快乐, 假装不悲伤, 也假装很坚强。
Today
Went to church in the afternoon. Met Wutong :D Baby i love you, i miss you soooo much :D
Had a lot of fun with her in church. We made each other couldn't stop laughing. My hands kept shaking then since i laughed toooo much. Ate a lot for dinner. Dam full -,- Feel i grow fatter .. Eh! Going to sch tmr, to collect my cash :D hahaha, will meet daughter and sisters tmr. Going out with my sticky tape and her father after sch, to buy the things for guide camp :D
Feeling lyk i got over and i got better alr. I really gave up i think. I am ok and fine with nvr met you for so many days. I nvr missed you and nvr thought abt you. Today is the First of November. The new start, i want to start the new journey without you, without your smiles, without your stares. My heart is empty from this moment. I wont care abt you any more. I swear, i give up. Good bye my jelly, my hehe, my love. Let it go and forget it..
Stop posting here. Going to watch 不能说的秘密 later. This will be the fourth or even fifth time, i watch it. Haha, love all the piano songs in the show, and love Jay Chou soooo much. Here are the pics with Wutong. Heeeee, Yi Lu Ping An, if you are not Ping An, i am going to Gan Diao Ni ! haha, Byes.