Thursday, 28 January 2010 | 4:07 pm
Can panadol stop the pain inside my heart..?
Yesterday:
Media study teacher nvr came yesterday, borrowed laptop from library and prepared for the afternoon presentation. Math nvr got full mark for the last quiz, dont know wat happen to me.. careless, lazy, and not interested to study for all the subjects .. - - .. nvr listened history and geo lessons at all.. then today started to borrow here borrow there the notes teacher gave - - .. presentation was sibeh nervous.. nobody knows how poor i am, nobody knows how much i have suffer from these things ..
Today:
These days cannot live without panadol.. stomach cramp and headache are seriously killing me.. talk to yenny abt all the past few years during modular cca, quite sad and low, as wat i want to ask, can panadol stop the pain inside my heart? can any doctor help me let the hurt disappear in my heart..? none. love is all abt the passion on tat second, then distances and time take over, love starts to become tired and unreasonable.. i put my facebook status as ' tons of friends, but who is the one really care abt me? none.' soooo many ppl complain to me, how bad their life is, how much they hate their life, how their friends ignore them.. then, who should i complian to? who can listen to me and listen to alll my blah blah blah stories..? dont you all noe, imma even worse than you all..? .. dont think you are the most unfortunate one in this world, there are dont know how many billion times of ppl even much more sad than you, and imma one of them anyway.
Farah said today every time i talked to guoqiang , lyk we two fight with each other. yea, imma really quite angry, and i dont want he always keeps following us, dont want to listen to him talk to me abt how bad others are.. wtf, you think you vry gd meh? siao. The SJ oso, today u even want to ask my new york join ur group, is it? fuck ur backside. How many friends you want to snatch from me? hey, girl, dont always give me tat fucking face, dont always stare at me with those fucking looks, do you know you look lyk a funny witch? omg, fuck off. the more times i see you in a day, the faster i will die.
Yea, imma sibeh beisung. wat you want to do to me. wat you want me to do! the whole world leave me alone, then still ask me to have a grateful heart to everyone, the whole world throw me out, then still want me to be friendly to everybody. imma just a normal humanbeing, i oso can feel pain , feel sad, feel lonely, dont treat me lyk the toughest robot in the world. i have the same pumping heart as you all, think before you do those things to me, if you are me, can you bear with it, if you cannot, me too.
If time can go backward, i wont choose to come to this world. Byes.
Labels: Sorrow around
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