Unfaithfully.

Friday, 30 April 2010 | 2:53 pm

28Days.

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Love can either make a man grow up or make him sink down.

Both El and Cl paper have done already. Times fly. 2010's april is going to pass. now is the 30th of Apr alr, i still can vividly remember what happened on april fool day.

I think both chinese and english had done not bad. my mood swings. yeah. i don't know why, and it's not pms anw. haha.

Sir kept asking me delete the pics on fb, actually nothing larh, why so what..

I got nothing to say. just blog until here bah. i seriously miss you. anw, dylan, it's not jerryl , stop jerryl jerryl okayy? although i don't care those gossip, since i too used to them, i don't really like.

Ouhh, no words le, okayy. byees

MeIllJmissU.

Labels: Sorrow around

Wednesday, 28 April 2010 | 2:56 pm

( I have exactly 30 days to reach you. Yay! Lovers, I am coming back! )

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You will finally know that, the hero lies in you.

Everything was normal these days. But i cannot concentrate on studying. I don't know why, all my attentions are on other things. Tmr is english paper le, yeah, fight fight, i can do that! jia you.

Haha, except the class tee events, all others are very okay in this week. monday nvr go sch, lazy + stomach cramp = no school (: tuesday, back to school, showed jingting and me's class tee design to class. yeah, that's the beginning of the war. While the time i put up the pic on facebook, everone was fine with it, may be one or two don't like the front part, but majority had agreed with it. then come to the real talk, ppl all against us, yeah, it's the time i tasted my failure. I post on facebook, some friends are like shit. when you need them to care and support you, they just sit down there, shake legs and point fingers at you. Wtf. and yeah, i hate those dog who any how bark ppl, do you know you are sibeh kp? bastard, you really have a great ability of pissing ppl off. those faking friends are referring to those guys. from yesterday to now, i refused to talk to them. i really found that, friends have many categories, and one of them, is the faking one. When they need you, they want to have fun or talk to you, thus they come to you. but the time when you need them to give you a little help, they rejected, and start to talk crap then. i hate the way you shouted at me, i hate the way you throwed attitude at me, i hate the way you pointed finger at me. fine, that's called friends? yup , no problem, you treat me like this, i will return you all back. Pls, don't say me no manners, don't say that you called me i throwed you ignorance, don't say you called my name i nvr gave any response, boys, don't blame me, that's what you deserve to get from me.

Abt the dog. sir had asked me to take down the mr ratnam's pic on fb. aft that, second day when i back to sch, during science lesson, rccb suddenly asked, i heard someone in your class put my photo on facebook? the dog pointed at me, and shouted this girl this girl! me, jingting, marcus, xuanxian were like what the hell? we haven't recover from the question yet, he was damn excited to shout my name. fine larh, i nvr said not me rite? why you so damn kp and bastard? you think in the world, you are the only dog knows how to bark is it? even you are, you no need to do this rite? I have no words on you, omg. that's really destroyed my day.

Today after sch, slack at ground floor of my block. keepa and audrey sent me home, and we revised about the format of formal letter. getting confused on math. seriously need to warn myself pay effort in study. last math quiz got full marks (: today tested agian, life is so stressed up now. physics got 32.5/35. ouhh, i am so happy, haha, i won choi on. and chinese got 16/20 for si han. hee. jia you jia you.

Tmr is el paper le, going to study. yeah, I am the best, yooo. Byes!

Ps; special thank you to jingting, farah, keepa, audrey and alicia tan (: thx sisters. loved!

MeIllJcheeredUp

Friday, 23 April 2010 | 9:46 pm

(Though I like distances, I hate apart. )

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And then a hero comes along, with the strength to carry on.

Just back home from school. It was really a tough day. Yeah.

Morning until the end of school was generally okay. Rerun my 2.4 today, 16 mins :D yeah, now have gotten a bronze for my napha, yay! But after ran my shoes were gonna dirty by the mud ): washed, but both shoes and socks wetted, walked in school with bare feet, haha, felt good (: climbing up to fourth level for geo. almost was going to faint, cannot balance my body at that time. but i was feeling super happy that i passed, haha. thx god for blessing, yeh! and yeah, while i was running, 3a also have pe with us, she smiled at me. i was quite shocked by her. but im happy, hope all the misunderstanding had gone, coz it passed quite long time alr.

Geo got 13/15 for last test, i was so satisfied with it. but choi on got 15 D: omg, he beated me agian. Lol, but nvm, i won him on history for 2 grades. hahaha, very enough liao. And was f&n, rushed then finished the course work, this year will also cook pizza (: haha, i am so pro with baking pizza.

Chinese was fine, today took compo test. now i like nothing to wirte alr, i am on a lack of those gorgeous words. haha. will improve soon, fight for the first standard in chinese of level during sa1. and i want my over all position 2 of level again. not look forward to first place, but don't drop, don't drop ! amen, amen.

After school, went j8 with farah and keepa. wanted to eat kfc, but very crowded inside, so walked around in j8. then found there were three ITE boys stalking me, omg. so scary. omg, omg. lucky, went and hide in mcdonald, and saw glenn, kennth, gabriel and dave there. sat together with them, and the ite ppl don't want to wait, then they walked away, muahaha. thank you guys. and after they went back home, we lost hope again, lol. saw hadi, but he didnt want me follow sia, shame on me- -. then went amk hub. ate mc at there, saw dinglin and jeremy there. i said dinglin will be there, haha, then he really there. wanted to buy school bag, but all super ugly. so gave up alr.

Around 4 then go back sch, talked with francis and andrew, okay, mr wan called that flirt. he was very pervert to talk the topic with fracis, he said he must try to reach francis's standard and make friends with us. haha, i said, i nvr treat they two like boys before, yeah, we are sisters. hahaha. mr wan remember one sentence that i said to francis, ' oioi, francis, i will return you your hairband later.' hahaha. then after chatted in school with them, back to my house, changed guide full-u, then go back to school again. was expecting will have someone still there, but only ncc and guides and some councillors. Had fun with ncc guys, zul, benedict, weiheng, bryan and blah blah. complained about wenxuan's fringe, i told him what kim said, he looks like subbraj and edwin from far, if he keeps fringe like that. lol! and there was raining at the time, and we heard a super loud thunder, it was the loudest ever i heard in my life. bryan said even the gate door vibrated. that was really scary. when the flash filled up the sky, the whole canteen turned to white and very bright D: terrance shouted japanese come! hahaha. lame.

Then was the speech day duty. ppl watched my chinese video. ahaha. happy (: poured drinks, served dishes, carried plates. we were worked as waitress, but quite fun larh, altough it was a sibeh tough and tiring work. the buffet our sch provided was high standard one uhh. very good leh, but for us only can eat nasi lemak, but okayy larh, i like that food delivery company, their food taste quite well. I was very famous today, muahaha, since they watched my video, then they remembered my face, yay! and ms melissa tan was dam pretty today lorh, mr wan xoxo. hahaha. mr poh and mr ong were dam cute today, since they two wear bps councillor tie, haha. teachers, i refer to some only, lol. you are beloved (:

Now my legs cramp. so tired today. happiness, excitement, fears, and sadness all in one day. Going to sleep, my eyes cannot open alr. haha. and yeah, i don't know why my face bcomes more white !? more pale some more, gabriel said, dinglin said me got cancer, wtf larh. me is blue blood, borned in this noblest skin colour okay? hahaha.

Want to say a thank you to the guys i met in j8, and thank you farah, keepa and vanessa. and ncc ppls. yeah. Good nights. God said, tomorrow will always be brighter than today. I believed in, i trusted on. I love BPS! yeshh, I LOVE BPS!!

You looked inside of my eyes, you smiled to my heart. It was so unbelievable that happened again. But boy, all had passed. Yeah, all had passed.

MeILLJisTired.

Labels: Sorrow around

Tuesday, 20 April 2010 | 4:45 pm

( I am always the one who is giving but not receiving. )

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I love you, I hope you can love me as same that much as my love. I trust you, I hope you can trust me as same that much as how i trust you.

Post again. I think if i have a desire to post means my mood is really terrible. Yeah, this was another irritating day. I really feel so enough about those pervert and bastard. Omg, why life must full of those craps.

Okayy. Let's start with math. It's as boring as usual, all the way from the start until it end. It's really like a double period all about lullaby. Last test paper realised, since i got full marks (: so i nvr listened what she went through, the almost 30 mins were staring at the exam timetable and fa dai, and dreaming. Today's math quiz was ok, not difficult, hope can get another full mark {; The dot diagram is so retarded. I hate that thing sia. Waste my brian. so many black black dots made me giddy.

Then follow by recess. my stomach cramped. super pain. and many many ppl were eating icecream beside me, it made my stomach even more pain. LOL. they say me crazy, coz i hate all the things normal kids like to eat ): e.g. icecream and chocolate. haha. aft my duty, went up to rathnam's homeroom. ahh yoo. every time see him, feels so uncomfortable. but today's science lesson quite fun larh. everybody was laughing laughing. Rathnam scolded us idiots. ouhh, teacher, how can you say that word to your students. then xuanxian said, mr rathnam, don't you know, idiot is a very strong word ? /; yeah, mr rathnam, you broke our hearts, you hurted us. then he siad to veron, sit down, and shit on you ;o again? why today rathnam so hyper! but we even more, coz he totally cannot control the class. me, jingting, xuanxian, marcus, derek were laughing among ourselves, designed class tee and made many many jokes. but i cannot bear with the boys' perverted mind. omg, im so irritated about that ):

Then, okayy, the most excited story here. the quarrel between me and sau foon. since jingting pull my rubber band (fk you monster), then we went to toilet tie back. she washed her fringe then. talk talk until when the time we went back class was 10 mins late. but the lesson also not started yet. sau foon just passed down our last history test paper. and e4 was as noisy as all the time we are. jingting walk in, i followed behind her, then i said to sau foon, sorry we are late. then, after i apologized, she become vry excited. And said, yes, you are too late. too late. too late! must deduct marks from you. must must! then i said, huh? deduct lorh. since i got 16/20, i not afraid if she menus 5 marks from me, i still pass what. then jingting used the paper block her face, showed me her mark, it was exactly 10/20. i just stared at her paper and said nothing. aft sau foon turned back to me, i told her, menus 2 marks from me larh, i don't want jingting failed her test. she said okay larh! see! your a1 dropped to a2 liao, so poor for you. i said anything larh, like i care uh? stop at here, the first part ended. my second recess was full of the crap that she throwed to me. so if i had ignored anybody when you smiled at me, i'm so sorry.

Back to class aft recess. saw her face again. first, she showed us our history results. when she read my name, she said, 75 a1 but menus 2 marks, it's 73. i never give any response and just let her do what she wants. then eunice suddenly ask, why must menus 2 marks from lujia? then she said, because she request me to deduct 2 marks from her. OMG! i shouted at her, no? then she said, yes! you did it. you had request me to deduct 2 marks from your paper what? then i answered, it's you want to menus my mark what? how can i request you menus my mark! i just want to help jingting pass what! then she said you see you see! it's you request one what! omg, okayy larh. anything, what the fuck, i have nothing to talk back, since i dont' want to talk to a crazy old lady. yeah. you are so unreasonable.

Veron asked me, why i am so high today. i said, i everyday like this what. she siad, today is extreme. Okay, i think i might be a bit overly today. but i seriously having too much troubles in my life. i hate those ppl who bastarded me and perverted me. that's so disgusting. Im not free item for you. fuck offfff larh, so irritating. omg.

If all the teachers are like this, i will very regret that i nvr transfer in the beginning of the year. okay larh, you want to menus you menus larh, as long as i understand the knowledge and absorb. all the results are only one piece of paper. who cares. aft time, all the papers will go into the rubbish bin what. you will lose one a1 in your class, that's not my problem. it's you failed on your teaching skills.

And i want to say that. jt. you might nvr felt that i had do some great thing for you. but i did feel that. yeah, as what you say, it's super easy for me to get above 50 or another a1 for sa paper. but that's my result, my paper, my hardworkings, my futures. everybody cares there results, everybody dreams for a1. i do also. but, i can tell her just menus my marks straightly aft i saw your results, that's care, love, and what i did for friendship. i nvr want you feel grateful or guilty. but i want you understand. understand the much i do for you. yeah. I love you, I hope you can love me as same that much as my love. I trust you, I hope you can trust me as same that much as how i trust you.

- I always can define your face from far away. and now also.

I had saw you from the end of the corridor.

But when the time you passed by me, even when you talk to him about me and even when you point at me, turned your head to me.

I just walked forward, and never gave any glance.

This is the ever first time i did that.

I think i really had nothing on you.

Yeah. that's called recoverd.

And i finally did that.

MeIllJsaidJYJY.

Labels: Sorrow around

Monday, 19 April 2010 | 5:11 pm

(Shee, it's raining, Yay!)

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I hate that much i love you boy.

Yes, i am under a very tough condition now. Icast still need to edit ): Math quiz tmr on mode, median and mean. Science test tmr (what the fuck?) Ratnam never teach properly, then want to give test? omg. the whole world is too crazy alr.

I was too busy these days. But i still want to post. Yes (: my blog is so active recently. I'm so addicted to my laptop. Haha. Nothing much happened today. Just feel my face is super pale, white and ugly ): i said to jingting, omg, my face chao ji bai leh. hahaha. cao ji bai :x LOL. even mr wan laugh at my lame joke. seriously, i spoke that accidentally {:

Okayy. First period was english, the oral memorizing thingy i had done well. just rushed through last night, today can write down all, haha. Im so smart. Then followed by CE. saw sau foon face again, argh }; gonna caught by using facebook during the time we doing the ecareer thing. haha. but okay larh, teacher nvr killed me :P and then is, art. omg, derek saw flirt with ms tan all the way from the start of the lesson until the end, that's so unbelievable. haha. aft art is math. said YAY! coz my inequality quiz got 15/15. lol. at first mrs tan said that many ppl's results are dropped, most of you should know the reasons. i thought my math had dropped leh, coz i nvr paid much efforts for math and all my attention and concentration are on xoxo (: but yay. thx god, haha, i done great job again :D so happy. Then was the our favourite media study. every time was super slake one, but today all the media teachers were busy with recording videos for speech day. so we had free period in library. and we took a video called, the moment when fracis comes out from the coffin. haha, will post on facebook later. and I said that, our free period is too free, free until cannot free le. haha. then was geo. ouhh, 2e4's favourite geography and favourite sir (: haha. we were very hyper. every time geo lesson can kill the emo germs within our body. hehe.

Exams timetable realised. that's too stressed. but this year, the arrangements for the different subjects are generally fair and reasonable. we have more time to revise le. at least, me think so larh (: i appreciate the person who arrang the exams for sec2 express classes. salute you yeah!

Okayy. to be honour, my mood is very down today, i don't know what happened, i just feeling emo and emo and emo under my smiling face. maybe the more i laughed, the more sad i will get. i think that's what le ji sheng bei means. my chinese is soo pro yeah, haha.

Post until here larh, after i say out all the feelings and all the craps in my day, i feel much better alr. just ate the cup noodle, muahaha, im so full now. have nvr talked much to my happy aurey today. farah ane me were feeling very loney during the second recess time, coz i want someone sits together with us and chat. only francis came lor. thx thx, starstruck(: and anw, krizha, hahahaha, you are so damn power :D made my life so fun today. yooo! hope tmr will have someone sits together with us and bring funs to me (:

Going to study le. Yes, smile smile smile. Don't be emo. Yeah. Fight for math and physics uhh! and i won't call posting blog is wasting time. it definitely have brought up my mood. yes, i love you, mr blogger, muacks(: haha, Yes Yes. Byee.

Ps, Fuck up RCCB and MTS. :P unhappy with you two. But you wont be the one affect my life anw. LOL, get lost larh. ccb. Shooooo !

- My darling, I am right here waiting for you to come nearer and nearer. Yes, wherever you go, whatever you do, i will be right here waiting for you. waiting and waiting, until the day i had waited you to stand by me.

MeIllJrocksURsocks!

Labels: Lovely days

Friday, 16 April 2010 | 6:56 pm

MeIllJfeelsComplicated

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My life is all about craps. Fuck my life. I hate myself.

Things have gone wrong and wrong. Just reached home about 30 mins. now i started to hate my cca. i dont know why. many ppl had irritated me and disgusted me. Im so unhappy.

These days always got many many fucking things happened. Okayy. life is too short, i must enjoy myself and try to be happy. Yeah, i always think like this, but i really cannot recover. Sometimes, friends are like shit. but, its referring to those ppl who are only acting and being fake in front of you as a friend. that is so rascalled. argh, i hate those bithches and bastards. Don't know me don't judge me. You can hate me even aboveboard, but don't talk behind my back.

Pe was okay today. i prayed very hard last night for today can rain during pe period. and god did it. there was raining during pe lesson although it's very small. i was so grateful about his print and his work, thx Jesus, thx God {; we no need to run then. went to hall went through our results for napfa first. this year even nvr got bronze, failed my 2.4 and becoz my pull up only got one point, so my total scores had dropped. ehh. then went down to gym. T1 was there too. it was fun to watch those little monkeys run here run there and play in the gym. talked to audrey about what happened these days last night. i was recovered a little bit. emo-ed during the time in gym. lied againset keepa and chatted with jingting, venny and huiyi. took picture then.

Geo test was okayy. zul you should say a big big thank you to me. f&n, i love the course work (: i like ms kok also, she is cute but talk a lot. nvm larh, old ppl all lyk that mah. at least she is not as same as those young bithchy teachers in our sch. chinese lesson also okayy larh. super sian as usual. tmr needs to go the chinese and english translation competition, not able to attend sc gm again. not nervous about the competition, wether can win or not, it will always be fine. who cares, as long as i worked for it and paid efforts for it. 0715 am must reach what what station on circle line. omg, how early should i get up. vanessa and lynn will also be there with me. too lazy to edit the icast. ahh. will do it tmr bah.

When all the sec2 guides got their bronze badges, i was there alone in the corner shamefully. I was kind of disappointed on myself, yeah, i hate myself. what the fuck i had done? why ppl must treat me like this? teacher, you even don't bother to check my book. why ignored me? i was poor already, why must you make me even more pitiful. Yeah, im on fault also. i had never paid in too much efforts. okayy, i know that and i did self criticism. but, as long as you are the teacher, you are the guider, you should ask me for my book and discuss with me where should i improve more. however, what did you do to me? the silver total defence also. you gave me that kind of face and said to me, we did the course work during camp lorh. ahh yoo, who knows there is someone nvr came for camp. wtf. i have my reasons, and somemore, it's my family problem. how can i leave the dying person alone and join the fucking camp? omg, i am so moody. and i hate all all all all all living things in the world.

Class tee. okayy. im not going to say any more words out. i know you all think i am bitchy. never mind. i will agree with all the colours that you all want to make. im not complaining here. but all the words ppl talk behind my back, i knew that. i just want to say that, we are still young, still childish. human will make mistakes, and some more, we are children who are not mature enough. so, i want to ask for forgiving that some words i had said wrongly. okayy, im just too hyper on that day. i was trying to entertain the class some how. and believe me, i had never wanted to point against someone, i hope ppl can understand.

My heart is like a desolate, barren and ravaged land. breeze comes, breeze goes. spring comes, spring goes. love comes, love goes. It's like a piece of grass being trampled by everybody. somethings that i wished to happen, they still happened. but all those sad stuff which i nvr wished to happen ever once in my life, they also keep happening day in day out.

Post until here bah. need go study le. hope everything goes well on me. Me, loved. lost. ps; i cannot find my guide handbook. what the fuck. im struggling in all the troubles. ); Byees.

- I had expeced you can come to me. But when all the things happened so suddenly. I had never got excited or felt happy. It's just even more complicated. It's just like two old friends. but no any other feelings. however, things just happened so. i really can't explain.

Labels: Sorrow around

Tuesday, 13 April 2010 | 6:29 pm

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Rain down on me, the cold airs filled me up. All my persistence break down at all of a sudden.

I'm not a cover only. What you see about me may not be the truth. since you cannot see the pain inside my heart, you cannot be told that i am happy. Started from yeasterday, i wanted to talk to someone until now. Only when me and audrey walked at amk after met jingting. i told her what had happened yesterday. tough i spoke to her all the things, she still cannot understand me completely. coz there are still many many stories. rather than stories, they are tragedies.

School was quite okay today. The only thing was choi on and seth fighted during science lesson. lol, that was so enjoyable for us to watch. but it lasted so short only D: everybody was so crazy during sci. mr pregnant could not handle the class at that time. i had wasted my 100 mins with mr pregnant again ): During english sau foon scolded me again. because i looked inside mirror for very long. not my fault larh, all because of derek. every time sau foon scold me all his fault lor.

After school, me, farah and aurey went to j8. we went to find wig for jingting (: yeah, you never read wrongly. she needs a wig {: hehe. as icast project she is going to be acting as aunty lucy, so she must need a wig. haha. adam brought us went many hair style shop, but all dun have. every time we went ask the person, they looked lyk somebody died at home. ' what? wig? eh? sorry, we dont sell that.' hahaha. after j8 then went amk hub met jingting. then she suddenly said she dont want wig le. so just walked together with jingting and audrey at amk hub. everything was fine then.

I was totally wet. rains down on me. my heart was even feeling cold. sadness came to me all of a sudden. i have no more strength to hold on any more. you asked me, why i never talk to you. i replied, you also never talk to me what? yeah. i had changed. all the things, at times. the howling of the horrible winds frightened me. many many times, i spend my time like this lonely. grandma is at church and me alone at home. be honest, i have never miss you for tons of years. maybe that's the reason why i never talk to you. In your mind, your heart, all within you, is about her. Okay, it does not matter. and im not caring it. no matter how crazy and deep you love her, i dont want to bother about that.Things passed for so many many years alr. i dont want it to be repeated anymore. im gonna be stronger.

Speak many tings to jingting today. Relax and cheer up. kayy?

- it's not over tonight. just give me one more chance to make it right.

I thought you are forever a part of me, but which is not true. i had gotten over this time.

Yes. through all the years and all the pains. i had finally forgettn what does love mean to me.

MeIllJhaveLost.

Monday, 12 April 2010 | 1:13 pm

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I do not know why should i bear with all these.

Yes, as what you heard, what you saw. I am unhappy. Most of you should know the reason. Yeah.That's unreasonable, and it is my own problem. Sometimes, you should let me choose my own living way although i am officially under your control. I am kind of bored and angry. You had irritated me in the early hours of the morning. I started my new monday with your scolded and carelessness. Yes, i am unhappy. Because of you.

Yeah, fine. i will stay back after cdt and do whatever you want me to do. now i am right in a kind of weakness. i am feeling that my heart is falling into the deep slopes of the valley. no strength to quarrel or against back. everybody is playing there facebook happily. yeah, they are leaving me alone (again). People i am not complaining or throwing attitude, but you should understand everybody can have a bad mood. Me is also human being and me also have a fragile and soft heart. It is okay that nobody understands me. But, you don't know me, don't judge me.

English was okay in the morning. Did the memorizing, i think i have done well. Follow by ce, went computer lab. logged in facebook, and did the ecareer. craps. what my suitable career in the future is minister of religion and education? science teacher, math teacher, dance instructor, primary/ secondary/ jc teacher? wtf. who wants to be a teacher? i hate teachers. i don't want people get hating on me in the future only because i am their teacher. yes, what the fuck. i hate teachers.

Math test delayed to Wednesday. art work haven't done yet. Now is media then geography. i think sir's lesson can bring up my mood then make me laugh (: yay, looking forward to it. Then cdt i need to see that bloody face. Don't know my name will flash on the screen or not. But never mind, who cares ): waiting for my nightmare to come, going to play games. Ps, my foot is sibeh pain now. the plaster is keep coming out. D: farah my darling, your head uhh, it's not my problem. it's the plaster's problem, the quality is fucking lousy, okayy?

Yeah, post to here. aft sch then upload my pic for this post (: try to smile. smile. smile. whatever people do to me, i am still the best. yeah, believe that. no one can make me depressed :}

- Life is too short. Time flies like the flowing river. All i need to do is just smile. Once i died, i will never to get chance to smile to the people around me.

Friday, 9 April 2010 | 3:54 pm

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My love does not need sorrow, but time. My heart does not need sympathy but understanding.

Sometimes, i am so greedy about life. whatever i feel, is just not enough. but sometimes, im grateful. all i can see is all the brightness within your eyes. Things are getting good. life is seemed to be even much better compares to before.

Happiness all around. although im so tiring these days. tests, tests, tests. so many tests. plus my napfa. now my whole body is having cramp. super painful. then i bear with the pain, i ran my 2.4 today somemore. actually i dun want to come sch today. jingting, you menace me huh. you thinnk i scared ? yes. i scared ><. eh. i really care. so i force me to go today. dylan also. kept asking me go sch and said will give me prize. then where is your prize? lol. aurey you also. said everybody is lazy, everybody doesnt want to go sch. teach me so many things about blah blah blah. okayy lor, then today i came, then i ran sia! but, i failed. Damn it!

Last year, my 2.4 was around 17 mins. then this year becomes 20.23. wth. i reach together with aurey. but she gets shorter time than me. even herself asked me why my time is longer than hers. yaa, that's unfaired. and i even ran beyond the ending line alr, then mrs kwong still counted me time. wtf. teacher, where can lyk this one. then i said i dun want retest anymore. like this she even said cannot. must prove her that i failed three times then can chop me failed. omg. three times? you want me waste my energy and just let you see i can fail two more times more?! omg. siao ! Then about my five stations, sit up is 32, pull up is 5 only ): sit and reach 43 :D shuttle run 12.1, long jump 163 (: i nvr jump until this long , hahaha, although to others it will be vry lousy, but im happy le :} if next friday still need to run, then i wont come sch le :x

Skipped guide today, really cannot stand for it le. sry miss teo that i keep skipping ): next week i will go then (: i really need a long period resting time. lol. next week math test, geo test, compre test, sau foon's oral memorizing test. walao ahh. sch kills me D:

Post to here bah. im getting a bit sad. and it's raining anyway. lying on bed for the whole afternoon. feeling sibeh tired. but if is so relax and slack, why are you living for? what is the purpose of your life? busy and tiring are good for people. but now they are exhausting me out of energy. later get up then start study. yaa. byees. SMILED.

- Once we loved too much, we will hate even more then. Once we hurted too much, we will be irritated more easily. These are all the steps we must go through in life. Went through it all, i appreciated it, and wanted to say a thank you. For that, you were the person who experienced those lessons and coped the hardships together with me. But, not any others. But, it's you.

- Windows are opening, rains dropped on me. This is the time for me to miss you. This is how life's running for. Baby, just feel it once more. Then, for me to flash back, forgive all, forget about and freeze it in memory.

MeIllJwithLove

Labels: Sorrow around

Tuesday, 6 April 2010 | 3:40 pm

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There are always somethings invisible but precious and gorgeous for me to find out.

Math was fine today. But as per normal, sibeh boring. solving equation involving indices. ahh yoo. weak at this topic leh, but how, so boring. cannot concentrate. turn my head front then back. ppl were either revising their history under the table or sleeping on the desk. Lol. algebra can kill you, yaa. that's correct (:

After math was health screening straightly. the indian woman was vry beisung leh. keep shouting at us. i have almost 5+ months nvr wear my spects le. so as usual, i nvr bring :x i feel so lucky im index 6 leh. haha. when 1 to 5 was checking, i go memorize the eyesight list :D hahahaha. im super smart (: then the person said although i wear spects, but my eyesight is still ok ok. dont you know, my real eyesight is vry lousy? haha. those small small letters are lyk ants in front of me ):

Slack aft health checking. sit outside the band room play games with jingting and aurey. farah, vanessa and alicia were with us too (: veron group was playing truth or dare. haha. we are so expert in that game. me and farah can answer all the questions before ppl ask. yaa, i can read through your mind <: you better be careful uhh. im so crazy abt aurey's funny game. i every time lose de . ahh yoo. so poor thing sia. then second recess we went to library played again. were with fafa, lex and lokie, derek and nick. were very delirious with joy. they said me drunk . hahaha :x and yaa. nicholas you really look lyk a television when you lie on the floor. And fracis , andrew. you two are having metal problems. did the nurse check it out during health screening? ohh, yaa. lexshiro aurey, im so addicted of entertaining you. okay. you are serious in trouble now .hahaha {:

History. before the test, finally i calm down. Hahaha. too hyper today. but i hope everyday can lyk this happy (: questions were fucking disgusting and no writing paper prepared for us. ahh yoo, sua foon, why are you so mean. i was taking 5 mins to find a piece of full scape leh. my answers were full of the paper. 2 pgs :x lyk compo sia , but i think i did well yeah.

English. see sua foon again. lol. today she quite okay to us (: still better than mr pregnant and ms piggy :x i lyk the compo lesson today. me and vanessa were the best perfect partners ever :D hehe. the compo i wrote a fire accident. and there was a character, which was my pet. a dog, named ms chongchong. fongchong's relative :D

Sch days sometimes were too boring, too stressed. but most of the time, it is fine and joy. all my life now is abt family. study and happiness within friendships. sry veron that today i nvr follow you go see the boy. lol. i really not interesed . haha. thx for those who keep intro stead for me. i dun need lah. intro to others okkay ? and i started to talk to mh le. i dun want those misunderstandings stay in my life even without knowing what happened to cause those misunderstanding out. yaa. she's at least friendly. (:

Post until here bah. Life rocks, e4 rocks :) thursday physcis test :x ohh , i seriously lost. HAHA. Byeees :> beloved ones for today. sticky tape, lexx, monster, lokie.

- Don’t forget the things once you owned. Treasure the things that you can’t reach and get. Don't give up on the things that belong to you right now and keep those lost things in your memory. ILLJ. SMILED SWEETLY (:

　MEILLJ,withLOVE

Labels: Lovely days

Saturday, 3 April 2010 | 11:45 am

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Things are getting complicated.

Love is a lamp, while friendship is the shadow. when the lamp is off, you will find the shadow everywhere. friend is who can give you strength and hope at last. now days, when im experiencing the difficulties and the hardships, i found out the ones stand by me are not the one who i love deeply, but the ones always around me, i can find them whenever it is, wherever they are. those groups of people named, friends.

Put my facebook status as I love Grisselda Pherry, Wan Farah Dina, Venny Angela, Lim Jing Ting and Lexx Audrey Manalansan. Thanks sisters for helping and loving me all the time. thx jie for standing out for me and always cheer me up, make me happy. thx my sticky tape for being together with me every time, every steps, every moments. thx miss angela for learning and reviewing all the lessons we learnt from life with me. and especially a big thank you to monster lim and audrey. you two are my biggest happiness ever. i enjoyed all the time with you two. i dont know how can i live without my laoban's stupid jokes and audrey's crazy laughters. my five sisters, you are my appreciated precious secret love ever.

Daddy and mummy are going out later, im alone at home doing my homework. i feel things are getting wrong and complicated. i had get over about all the past, but i saw there are something shining in inauspicious light in front of me. i afraid you will become my next injury in my heart. i dont dare let the things move and continue. if you are the gift god give to me, i will recieive it happily. but maybe some months later, god will suddenly tell me, he send the gift to a wrong address. tough, if all the situation becomes like that. what should i do.

I have no strength to think all those craps. all the things i want to do is just sit down, and study. but i have no mood to concentrate on. ohh, damn it. i need to cheer up and fight for 0528. yaa, thats my target. im moving on.

- Myzj, you are my best damn thing.

Me IllJ, with love.

Labels: Lovely days

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