Tuesday, 13 April 2010 | 6:29 pm
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Rain down on me, the cold airs filled me up. All my persistence break down at all of a sudden.
I'm not a cover only. What you see about me may not be the truth. since you cannot see the pain inside my heart, you cannot be told that i am happy. Started from yeasterday, i wanted to talk to someone until now. Only when me and audrey walked at amk after met jingting. i told her what had happened yesterday. tough i spoke to her all the things, she still cannot understand me completely. coz there are still many many stories. rather than stories, they are tragedies.
School was quite okay today. The only thing was choi on and seth fighted during science lesson. lol, that was so enjoyable for us to watch. but it lasted so short only D: everybody was so crazy during sci. mr pregnant could not handle the class at that time. i had wasted my 100 mins with mr pregnant again ): During english sau foon scolded me again. because i looked inside mirror for very long. not my fault larh, all because of derek. every time sau foon scold me all his fault lor.
After school, me, farah and aurey went to j8. we went to find wig for jingting (: yeah, you never read wrongly. she needs a wig {: hehe. as icast project she is going to be acting as aunty lucy, so she must need a wig. haha. adam brought us went many hair style shop, but all dun have. every time we went ask the person, they looked lyk somebody died at home. ' what? wig? eh? sorry, we dont sell that.' hahaha. after j8 then went amk hub met jingting. then she suddenly said she dont want wig le. so just walked together with jingting and audrey at amk hub. everything was fine then.
I was totally wet. rains down on me. my heart was even feeling cold. sadness came to me all of a sudden. i have no more strength to hold on any more. you asked me, why i never talk to you. i replied, you also never talk to me what? yeah. i had changed. all the things, at times. the howling of the horrible winds frightened me. many many times, i spend my time like this lonely. grandma is at church and me alone at home. be honest, i have never miss you for tons of years. maybe that's the reason why i never talk to you. In your mind, your heart, all within you, is about her. Okay, it does not matter. and im not caring it. no matter how crazy and deep you love her, i dont want to bother about that.Things passed for so many many years alr. i dont want it to be repeated anymore. im gonna be stronger.
Speak many tings to jingting today. Relax and cheer up. kayy?
- it's not over tonight. just give me one more chance to make it right.
I thought you are forever a part of me, but which is not true. i had gotten over this time.
Yes. through all the years and all the pains. i had finally forgettn what does love mean to me.
MeIllJhaveLost.
♥ IVYLILUJIA